(15:07 / Thursday, May 17, 2007)
Don't Wait.
I listened to (more like set on repeat mode) Over You by Chris Daughtry and the lyrics really have reference to.. current situations. Yeah.
Why should i even bother posting about her, hoping she will see this redundant post soon and have a different perception of people? Or endlessly taking the thought of going up to her and speaking my feelings into consideration? Either way, I'm just wasting my time. If she doesnt care about how hurtful or blunt she can be to her own (or so she CLAIMS) friends and dont give two cows about what they are thinking or would have felt, I can't care less either.
After all, I think I care too much these days. It's not like people actually appreciate or change from it. They just promise (to who, i wonder) to change and flash a smile before walking off to show a 'gesture of appreciation'. Then the minute their backs are turned they mutter a somewhat silent 'BITCH'.
I should just leave them in denial to believe what wonderful people they've become after making their peers feel horrible. Or maybe I'm the one in denial that im not the one being blunt. If i had to cry at every letdown that had happened to me, my body would probably have lost all its water content. Or rather, anything that has happened within us is to trival for tears. Furthermore, i have no time to care about these angels.
Tomorrow there is
- History Common Test
- Dance Test
- Band Camp
Things due tomorrow
- Physics Pendulum Experiment (hermherm)
- History Coursework (it really doesnt help that i have to rewrite the whole fecking thing)
- D&T (possibly)
- Miss Tan )):
- Miss Yang )):
And i am thankful to my mother who didnt give me the face when i said i didnt want to have tuition today, and the Band people for somehow deciding that we shouldnt have Band this week cause if we had, i'd only finish at 6.30pm today and i OBVIOUSLY will not have enough time to revise for my History CT and finish the Physics Mini task AND rewrite my History Coursework. And hurm, dance test. I have no comments on that, but i know that i really cant wait for school to end tomorrow (then Band camp starts!).
Oh did i say, i was drenched (really really really) while walking home because of the rain. As SOME of you know, i live on this really really sickening-to-climb slope. Okay now, include that with thunder AND lightning AND a half broken umbrella AND water flying out of drains AND water rushing down so quickly that it reaches your ankles AND drivers who cant see students walking home in the HEAVY rain. Yes, horrible aint it?
1) THUNDER AND LIGHTNING. Then i see lightning i immediately cover my ears cause i expect a thunder. But i was grabbing my file and umbrella so i obviously had no free hands to cover my ears and so i kept on hearing thunder. And when i hear thunder i scream.
2) Stupid drivers swerving in and out of the pathetic two-lane road i stay on cause me to keep having to walk all the way to the side to avoid risk of being hit by a car. But who knew, the water was practically flying out of the drain (which happens to be on the SIDE of the road i was standing on) and yeah, you know. Ugh.
3) It's an upward slope i climb to get back home from school. So due to gravity (sheesh), the water was at my ankles :O gross i tell you.
Today is bad.